There are a lot of times in my life where I just feel a lack of comfort. When I am going through life trying to please myself and find satisfaction from the things around me, I wonder why I cannot be filled. Especially in the place where I am now, it is difficult to truly trust in the Lord's sovereign power over my life. I am, as I have made it clear in previous blogs, a follower of Christ and I believe in the living power of the Bible. I believe that it has the power to change people and that it is our only offensive weapon in the armor of God, according to Ephesians 6. I am currently in a season of thinking about the future. I am about to finish this year of college and I have one summer left before I begin my senior year and then have to become a real "adult." It brings into the picture a lot of doubt and a lot of worry about what I am going to do, where I am going to be, who I am going to be with, etc. Though I know I am not supposed to worry about my life, I find it difficult in this culture to trust that the Lord has a plan when all I am being told is "go, go, go."
Matthew 6, for this reason, is so comforting. Look at the lilies of the field, how they grow. Look at the birds of the air. They are clothed and taken care of and able to sustain life. Am I not much more valuable than they? Does God in Heaven not care more about me than he does the birds of the air and the lilies of the field?? Am I blind to His unconditional power and love in my life? I often think, yes.
Scripture is filled with these little "blurbs" about how we should trust the Lord. Well, it's a lot easier said than done, but I do believe it is possible. Absolutely. The healing and sanctifying power of scripture is incredible to me and I am amazed, over and over, at how little I trust in it's power in my life. Matthew 6 is all about how Christians should trust that their Father knows better than they do and, because of that, is there to protect them. This past year has been filled with situations where I have just doubted the power of God when I shouldn't have. I had to change my major and didn't think it would happen; it did. I had to get an internship for the summer and didn't think it would happen; it did. The list goes on and on of times when I do not think I can or don't see the need to trust the Lord. If I'm in control of my own life, why do I need someone to guide me through it? Obviously, my thinking is flawed. I am absolutely not in charge of my own life. I quite frequently look back upon the recent events of my life, seeing how the good times and the bad times have God's name written all over them. THe sovereignty of God means that He is in control and His power and plan for my life is impossible to make a mistake. I have learned over the course of my life that I am not significant enough to mess up God's plan. How comforting is that? I am comforted by this passage of Scripture because I can clearly see the love of the Father poured out on me. These are the times that I look back and wonder, "why did I ever doubt?"
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